Sorry for the late update.

So, was busy settling grandpa's funeral and wasn't really at home everyday as I stayed over at the Wake everynight to look after the place.
Thanks to Bby and friends for helping me kill time over there. Appreciated much. =))

Today was the funeral of grandpa, i didn't really had much sleep so went to the funeral in a really down and tired mood. Proceeded to Church of Mary of the Angels at 11am for Mass. and I'm really impressed that the church is super super nice. It has a really really big sculpture of Christ in the centre of the Service hall. but still.. I ain't into christianity and stuff. which also means that I was really bored at the service but yet had to maintain my cool. The priest did a really good job of helping to keep me awake by asking everyone to sit and stand and sit and stand for the prayers. hahaha i guess?.

after the Mass we went off to Mandai Crematorium, a place where I so damn don love to go. Did another small praying session and went to take a last look at grandpa. It was eff-ing devastating. no matter how much i can laugh for the past 3days, it all ended up in tears within that few seconds. My last image of grandpa, a really deep and nice image.

then came the worst, everyone proceeded to the viewing hall and waited for the coffin to slowly proceed to the cremation place. once the coffin became visible, papa cried and cried and kept on shouting his last words to grandpa. I've never see papa so sad before, it was really heart wrecking and eventually everyone including me and korkor broke out too.

While crying, I suddenly felt that gush of guilt go into my head and flashbacks start to recollect in my brain and i see images of grandpa's last day alive. I went down on my knees and apologised to him as many times as i could but i know that, no matter how many times i were to apologise, it wont make any difference either. I guess i just did it to deceive myself for that few mins uh.

Now everything is over , Grandpa's no longer around and Tmro's gonna be a start of a brand new day. Back to my Usual lifestyle again. Just hope that everything won't change.

Anyway, I would really like to thank all my friends who came down to the wake.
I really appreciate all the troubles you guys took to come down and accompany me. =))

most importantly, to my dearest sexy wifey.
Thank you for being with me at my lowest, i really needed that.
It was fun being with you for the past 2 nights and I will never forget every moment spend with you. Weird huh. ( don laugh, it's serious ) =D.
and yeah, korkor, sis-in-law and cousins likes you and said that you look like a very nice girl.
well of course i said "That's so not true" hehs! no laa, i said "Of course laa, look who's the delicious hubby." wahahaha! Torque. =x
I love you Bucuk2Sygsygsyg! ! ! ! !


-Oinkybby