So yeah, today's a half day. so yeah, am back to my home sweet home now.

reached camp bout 8, slept till 1130.
went for lunch till 12.
den played MotoGP, WLAN with 7 other people.
Fucking gerek i tel l you! cos it's superrr funny.
and tada! 2pm, took off pass and *poof* hilang daa~

anyway, "Yes its true that it's our life but we are living this life
with those people around us ,going through everything with them,
because they too are a part of our life and will always be around" - Her.

They won't be your true friends if they actually try to pull you down, and why would you even allow such people to be part of your life? As such, it isn't difficult to just tell them this=> "fuck off". Yes it's true that, to change you need to have the determination. But! if you don't have the courage to get "evil" away from you just simply because you can't bear to hurt them then i think no matter how much determination there is. You'll Defnitely fail. Reason? No matter how strong your determination can be, in the end, Discouragement will be your obstacle as you are too soft-hearted to push it away.But no matter what happens in the end, if your family aren't doing their part in helping you to change, there's always another one. An indirect family i would say. If you get what i mean that is. If not, Then it's me. =))

i hope you understand what i mean when i say, "I can't help you a single bit if all i hear from you is "Oh, Nothing laa." " You promised me that you'll open up. well you did. but i guess it's not all the way yet. yeah, it may take time. but i would rather you opening up to me the more important stuffs than the unimportant ones.

Lastly, and the most hurting one. but i just have to say this.

" am afraid of the future,boo me again and again and again.
i am still embracing the past,boo me again and again and again and again" - Her

If you're afraid of your future, It's either you got no faith in me, or not, in yourself.
If you're embracing the past. No point changing yourself at all.

So think hard, do you want to change or do you not?

If you want to, I'll always be around.
If you don't want to, then i guess it's too bad for me.
because i don't know any shit bout your past at all.
And this is where people can label me as. "Useless Boyfriend"

loves.

This is our first ever. I don't want it to be a "was".

Labels: Useless boyfriend